I stood at the edge of disasters Man in despair Burdened by weight I thought I couldn't repair I considered an end To escape the weight A permanent answer To a temporary state The darkness embraced me I danced with the void A fragile life The pain almost destroyed Running from pain I only got lost Paid the price But I covered the cost Painkillers of choice They whispered lies A venom that numbed Ut never dried my eyes My painkiller of choice Was a counterfeit peace Numbing my pain No longer provided release Hoooh oo ooo ooo oo I swallowed my shadows To silence the cries But the echoes remained Growing louder inside The words in my head They sharpened the blade A cut for a cut Every mistake I made The mirror showed A face I didn't know A stranger drowning In the undertow Saved by a hand Unexpected and real A quiet strength A chance to heal Painkillers of choice They whispered lies A venom that numbed But never dried my eyes To break those states I had to let go Tear out the roots Let the truth show Now my painkillers Are the ones I create A song, a touch A step toward my fate Love that lifts And purpose that stays A truth that grounds me Through the hardest days The pain's still there But it doesn't define It's the weight I carry To prove I'm alive My painkiller of choice Just made things worse I choose to kill the pain By healing what hurts Painkillers of choice They whispered lies A venom that numbed But never dried my eyes No cure, no escape But a life I can build A spirit once broken Now steady and filled