本字幕由TME AI技术生成 sidarthurhadstartedtonursediscontentinhimself hehadstartedtofeelthattheloveofhisfatherandtheloveofhismother andalsotheloveofhisfriend guvinderwouldnotbringhimjoyforeverandeverwouldnotnursehim feedhim satisfyhim hehadstartedtosuspectthathisvulerablefatherandhisotherteachers thatthewisebromshadalreadyrevealedtohimthemostundebestoftheirwisdom thattheyhadalreadyfilledhisexpectingvesselwiththeirrichnessandthevesselwasnotfull thespiritwasnotcontent thesoulwasnotcalm theheartwasnotsatisfied theabolutionsweregood buttheywerewater theydidnotwashoffthesin theydidnothealthespiritthirst theydidnotrelievethefearinhisheart thesacrificesandtheinvacationofthegoddswereexcellent butwasthatalldidthesacrificesgiveahappyfortune andwhataboutthegodds wasitreallyprejuorparty whohadcreatedtheworld wasitnottheattman hetheonlyone thesingularonewithagodsnotcreationscreatedlikemeandyousubjectatimemortal wasitthereforgood wasitright wasitmeaningfulandthehighestoccupationtomakeoffersingstothegods forwhomelsewereofferingstobemade whoelsewastobeworshiped buthimtheonlyone theatman andwherewasthatmantobefound wheredidhereside wheredidhiseternalheartbebeat whereelseputinoneownself initsinnermostpart in initsindustrucctablepart whicheveryonehadinhimself butwhere wherewasthisself thisinnermostpart thisultimatepart itwasnotfleshonedbone itwasneitherthoughtnorconsciousness thustheweiestonestaught sowhere wherewasittoreachthisplace theself myself theatmen therewasanotherway whichwasworthwhile lookingforalasandnobodyshowedthisway nobodyknewitnotthefatherandnottheteachersandwisemen nottheholysacrificialsongs theykneweverything thebrowmanandtheir theirholybooks theykneweverything theyhadtakencareofeverythingandofmorethaneverything thecreationoftheworld theoriginspeeechfood foodinhalingofexhaaling thearrangementofthesenses theactsofthegodds theyknewinfinitelymuch butwasitvaluabletoknowallofthis notknowingthatoneandonlything themostimportantthing thesolelyimportantthing surelymanyversesoftheholybooks particularlyintheupanishshaddsofsamarvadaspokeofthisinnermostandultimatething wonderfulvsyoursoulisthewholeworldwaswrittenthere anditwaswrittenthatmaninhissleep inhisdeepsleep wouldmeetwithhisinormostpart andwouldresinedintheatmman marvelouswisdomwasintheseversus allknowledgeofthewiestoneshadbeencollectedhereinmagicwords puroushoneycollectedbybees nonottobelookeddownuponwasthetremendousamountofenlightenment whichlayherecollectedandpreservedbyanumerablegenerationsofwisebromaans butwherewerethebromans whetherpriests whetherwisemenorpenniitants whohadsucceededinnotjustknowingthisdeepestofallknowledge butalsotoliveit wherewastheknowledgeableone whowovehisspelltobringhisfamiliaritywiththeattmanoutofthesleep intothestateofbeing awakeintothelife intoeverystepoftheway intowordanddeed sadarthuknewnewmanyvnerablebrowmanchichiefly hisfather thepureone thescholar themostvulnerableone hisfatherwastobeadmired quietandnoble wherehismannerspure hislife wise hiswords delicateandnoblethoughtslivedbehinditsbrow butevenhewhoknewsomuch didheliveinblissfufulness didhehavepeace washenotalsojustasearchingman athirstyman didhenotagainandagainhavetodrinkfromholysourcesasathirstyman fromtheofferings fromthebooks fromthedisputesofthebrommanwhywhydidheirirproachableone oneto towashoffsinseveryday dayriveforacleensingeverydayoverandovereverydaywasnotatmaninhim didnotthepresstinesourcespringfromhisheart ithadtobefoundthepresstinesourceinonesssself ithadtobepossesedeverythingelsewassearching wasadeor wasgettinglost thuswashisarthurthoughts thiswashisthirst thiswashissuffering