ጌታ ፡ ሆይ
ስውር ፡ እስሬን ፡ አሳየኝ
እንዳልራመድ ፡ ያደረገኝ
I was taught camouflage
Fit in all the time
Even if you have to fake and lie
What if I can't do it
Self-sabotage, evil eye
If I learn to do it
Will I prove that I'm not stupid? I
Know they got the tools
That they can use
To pimp a butterfly
Am I rooted in the truth?
Are my improvements something
I've illuded myself into?
Trying not to follow suit
Trying not to follow crew
Sticking to the roots
I'm trying not to do what they do
And I try to follow through
I grew up on Ethiopian Gospel
And then Pac and Snoop
Daddy wasn't there so mom
Was working overtime
Worried that her little babies
Would've turned to a life of crime
Get the Listerine
Naphazoline for them red eyes
Tryna keep my head high
I ain't wanna go
To school so instead I
Sleep til afternoon
Then awake at five
Tell my mom I'm going
Out to hoop
Promise I'll be home soon
But I lied, guess
That's what a childhood
Without no father do
But we still living' good
Don't know 'bout the hood
But I know struggle on the Eastside
Living check-to-check
Momma struggling with dept
So I take no disrespect
When niggas gunnin' for mine
Cause I'd ride with those I vibe with
Take a life for those I ride with
I'd give up my whole life
If that's what it takes
And I don't know no breaks
Now my words striking lightning
Hear the rumble of the thunder
That's my stomach, I got hunger
Humble me, no, Nigga
Kisho climbing to the top
I started deeper than the bottom
Boney-looking
Biking all around the block
Stoney manner cause I'm stubborn
Posty album kept me covered
Tony helped me get my shit together
Told me bout the in between colors
Not just black and white
Keep my goals in sight
The wrongs I write
I grip the mic
I flip the switch
Don't need no light
I read the script
No paradise
Not meant for me
I'm living twice
No gemini, recontextualize
The cards that's dealt to me
I write-
(Keep your-)
(I read the script, no paradise
Not meant for me, I'm living twice-)
(I read the script, no paradise
Not meant for me, I'm living twice-)
I write this letter with the pain
And guilt I overcame, but still
I keep hiding it, I'm ashamed
Cause I built up walls I can't break
In my mansion echoing lyrics
Words are stronger than they seem
But my aching passion can't help it
Wish I could control things
I never fucked with the pills
I seen what it did to juice
And I never followed the bills
Cause I seen what it did to millions
It's truth, they climbing the hills
To get to beverly-status
Developing habits, they reaching
Past the planets
I can't pass on 'em no judgement
I see 'em in the mirror, the madness
The overly hungry children
They hiding behind they mask cause
They never felt no approval
Adaption was crucial
They never seen the beauty in the Truth
Acting moody its brutal
Head up in the clouds
Twenty-four-seven, it's four-twenty
And it's telling, it's deafenin'
Nothing can cut through 'em
They losing they time, they losin'
They self, they losin' they mind
Livin' in denial
It's killing they mental
Livin' in a lie
Shit don't ever change
If you don't get up off yo ass
Sitting on yo hands
Let the past pass
Shit don't always go as planned
But I gotta stay on my feet
And I promise what's meant
For me will always be
I gotta see it past
My forty's living decent
Don't desire designer
Devine power help
Me acquire what I require
The Messiah is on my side so I never tire
I'ma apply the pressure til I retire
The fire that burns
Within my heart is never dyin'
I don't know how long I got
But I'ma give my life
I'll never fade away
I'll never fade away
I know my fate
I pray, the Lord gives me the tools
I need to make it great
Til that time I guess
I'll hustle in silence and wait
Know I gotta uh
Know I gotta, yeah
Yeah, yeah
(Head up)
