[00:05.035]Yo
[00:08.316]I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually
[00:13.772]You will eventually
[00:15.376]Some day
[00:18.072]One day
[00:21.576]
[00:21.776]I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually
[00:24.760]And when you get older I hope you don't hold this **** against me
[00:27.368]I hope you understand I love you more than life itself
[00:30.072]And this is nothin' but your daddy's thoughts when he was feelin' empty
[00:32.896]
[00:33.096]And everything ain't always what it seems like on the outside
[00:36.063]I fought so many tears so that you would never see the outcry
[00:38.752]I never wanted kids until I lived and went through hard times
[00:41.720]And became a man that fell in love with someone that my heart finds
[00:44.648]But you know how that **** go
[00:46.956]Young and reckless, different women part time
[00:48.716]And I wasn't ready for that life yet, I was in my dark prime
[00:51.612]Me and your moms ain't get along and she gave me a hard time
[00:54.340]I really think that we just crossed paths at the wrong time
[00:58.219]I wasn't happy when she said she was pregnant
[01:00.164]Probably the worst news of my life, that **** was so depressing
[01:03.132]I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it
[01:05.795]I'm sorry that I said that ****, yo I was trippin'
[01:08.932]
[01:09.132]I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually
[01:11.828]And when you get older I hope you don't hold this **** against me
[01:14.620]I'm sorry, yo
[01:18.608]
[01:18.808]And I never wanted a broken home to raise you from a distance
[01:21.728]Yeah I'll admit it, I was scared of that type of commitment
[01:24.649]Even hopes of a miscarriage, anything bad that could happen
[01:27.663]That'd get me out of that situation, I was livid
[01:29.698]I felt like **** about my thoughts, that wasn't me, I'm different
[01:33.176]Plus I was dealing with some demons that I couldn't live with
[01:36.088]I told her she should get an abortion and I really meant it
[01:41.731]
[01:41.931]I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually
[01:44.776]And when you get older I hope you don't hold this **** against me
[01:47.644]Hope you don't hate me, I was selfish, I hope you forgive me
[01:50.781]Hope you forgive me
[02:04.436]
[02:04.636]And I still remember your baby shower like it was yesterday
[02:07.876]And to your mom it was special, me, just another day
[02:10.344]I wish that you could see the pictures, all the fake phony smilin'
[02:13.268]Had to pretend that I was happy, deep down I was cryin'
[02:15.987]Ma asked if I was okay, I turned around and looked away
[02:18.856]I was dryin' all my tears, look back to say yeah
[02:21.896]I was lyin', goddamn, how the hell I get here?
[02:24.420]This is it, this supposed to be my life
[02:26.649]This ain't how I pictured it
[02:28.135]I never felt so damn alone, but it was more than often
[02:31.088]One of the worst days of my life, and I ain't even lyin'
[02:34.048]We argued when we came home, I blame myself for all this
[02:36.494]I think that I was holding a grudge 'cause she ain't get an abortion
[02:39.511]I'm sorry
[02:42.520]Damn
[02:44.100]
[02:44.300]And I know you can't understand my words but you will eventually
[02:47.751]And when you get older I hope you don't hold this **** against me
[02:50.342]I can't believe I tried to hurt you, I hope you forgive me
[02:53.355]Please, please
[03:01.708]
[03:01.908]And everything ain't always what it seems like on the outside
[03:04.716]I fight so many tears so that you would never see the outcry
[03:07.524]I sacrifice my life so you could live it
[03:09.172]Peace, want to give you things my father couldn't give to, me
[03:12.695]I think I was raised wrong, and that's just what it is to me
[03:15.776]And if you ask him then his ass gon' probably disagree
[03:18.832]But whatever, whatever
[03:24.736]And nothing's ever made me cry as much as you, I swear
[03:27.503]Your smile gives me motivation and some new ideas
[03:30.423]My worst fear is always you not knowing who I am
[03:33.360]'Cause I been on the road dreamchasing for you out here
[03:36.048]I was the first thing that you opened your eyes to
[03:37.956]And the last one that you said goodnight to
[03:40.257]I went home and cried to
[03:41.119]And I bawled my eyes out, and then watched you
[03:43.300]Glad I got you, that's a blatant fact
[03:44.799]And every negative thing I said I swear I take it back
[03:47.331]
[03:47.531]I know you don't understand my words but you will eventually
[03:50.532]And when you get older I hope you don't hold this **** against me
[03:53.526]I hope you understand I love you more than I love myself
[03:55.915]And this is nothin' but your daddy's thoughts when he was feelin' empty
[03:59.171]
[03:59.371]I was feelin' empty
[04:02.212]I been feelin' empty
[04:03.525]I put my emotions in this music when I'm feelin' empty
[04:06.348]I hope you forgive me
[04:07.836]Please, please
[04:12.245]