i'll keep treading water

so i don't drown like i did before

and heavenly father please forgive me

i won't be in church on sunday

and that may not please you

but i'll never leave you

i've found that i need you

in different spaces

a pew with less judgemental faces

make amends with where you've been

count the sheep still in your pen

wave goodbye to solitude

spring will bring new altitude

the words i held back

make me laugh

because i feel so much better now that i've said them

and maybe

just maybe i'll learn how to forgive him

but for now i don't like him at all or his friends or the calls he made

tried to burn down my stage

but now i just flip to the next page

and the next page

and the next one

make amends with where you've been

count the sheep still in your pen

wave goodbye to solitude

spring will bring new altitude